Written October 23, 2010
One of the hardest things for me to get used to here is how painfully aware of my gender I am. In the United States there are few things that point out gender differences, aside from sports teams. Here, even walking down the street makes you aware of being female. Something as simple as going to the store can elicit stares and comments from random men, and make you feel ridiculously small and helpless. Everything I do throughout the day is a painful reminder of the fact that I am the “weaker sex”.
Although I do not consider myself a feminist, this reality has been very difficult to deal with. Last weekend I decided that I needed to do something about feeling so helpless. I decided that it was a great idea to travel solo for our three day holiday weekend.
Pretty much all of the males I shared my plan with had the same concerned look on their face as they said, “Well, chances are you would be fine, but what if something happened?” I wasn’t planning on going very far, but it still required taking a 3 hour bus ride alone and staying by myself in the city of Comayagua. After a lot of deliberation I realized that the risk was worth it. I know the risks of something happen go up significantly if I am on my own, but I was really feeling the need to be independent and prove to myself that I was capable of traveling alone. It’s hard being 24 years old and go from being independent and accustomed to living on my own, to living with a family and not having any choice in what I eat, when I eat, when my clothes are washed, where I travel to, etc.
I left at 5 am on Saturday for the city of Santa Barbara with Amelia, Bret, Holly and Bryony. There we parted ways as they continued on to Tela, a beach town. After finding out that the bus left at 9 for Comayagua I went to grab breakfast. Upon returning to the bus station I was told that I was misinformed, and the direct bus for Comayagua had already left at 8:30, five minutes earlier. I ended up having to take a large passenger van, a rapidito, from Santa Barbara to the desvío, or intersection, at Pinto Solo. I got off and waited at a bus stop that was basically in the middle of nowhere, having no idea which bus I should take from there. I asked two women who were selling homemade food on the buses going by which one I needed to take. They said they would let me know when it passed. After about 20 minutes, one of them grabbed me by the hand, ran up to the side of the road with me and flagged down my bus.
Once I was on the extremely crowded bus I met a wonderful Honduras woman and her daughter who had moved to New Zealand seven years earlier. We had a lovely conversation about the differences between schools in Honduras, New Zealand and the United States. The rest of the bus ride was quite pleasant, and I arrived in Comayagua without any other setbacks.
I stayed in a really nice hotel near the center of town to make up for the fact that I would be staying alone. I spent 600 lempiras a night (about $30), which was way more than I’ve ever spent on a room here in Honduras, but breakfast was included, there was wireless internet, hot water, air conditioning and a comfortable bed, so it was well worth it.
Comayagua was a pretty city with a really nice parque central that had a very old Catholic Church on one side. I spent a lot of time just walking around and having coffee in a café near the church. They also had a huge grocery store, which was very overwhelming to walk into! I’m not used to having so much fresh produce, cereal choice, or really any choice whatsoever. The only cereal in La Unión is Corn Flakes. We have little fresh produce and no yogurt, wheat bread or peanut butter. I definitely spent way too much money, but it was well worth it.
Also, due to the internet access, I was able to research graduate schools and work on applications. I’ve decided to apply to Spanish Linguistics programs. I still have no idea what I will end up doing next year, but at least I will have the option of possibly going to grad school, if I get accepted. It’s just nice to have some options. Spanish Linguistics will be really difficult for me, because my Spanish abilities are still nowhere near where I need them to be, but I think getting an MA in Spanish would really help with that.
So after a lovely, relaxing weekend spent relaxing and recharging on my own, I headed back on Monday morning to La Unión. I had no trouble catching the correct bus, which would take me directly to Santa Barbara, where I would then take a bus to La Unión without having to wait alone by the side of the road. On the way to Santa Barbara the bus picked up a woman who was having an asthma attack. After a few minutes of her arrival we all realized that she was in desperate need of medical assistance. She could barely breath, and was starting to lose consciousness. Everyone on the bus was really concerned, and I started to realize that there was a very real chance that this woman could die on the bus. I quickly called Lauren, my roommate in Texas who is a nurse, for a quick refresher course on CPR after the woman lost consciousness again. Thankfully, I didn’t have to perform CPR because there was another passenger who took charge of the situation and cared for the woman, and after 15 very tense minutes an ambulance met the bus outside of Santa Barbara. The woman was quickly carried off the bus and into the ambulance. I’m not sure what ended up happening to her, but hopefully she is alright. It was a really scary situation that reminds me how readily available medical care is in the United States. Asthma attacks happen, but people have inhalers and can more easily get to the hospital. Things like that remind me that I am actually living in a third world country.
After such an eventful bus ride, I was happy to get onto the bus to La Unión and get home. Long story short, despite missing my bus on the way there and almost having to perform CPR on the return trip, I had a very relaxing and successful solo trip. It’s not something I want to make a habit of, but it was a nice thing to prove to myself. And Dad, if you’re reading this, please don’t kill me.